On A Wire

I hate you for what you’ve done to my heart
I hate you for your love, tricked fresh start,
before this day I was fine all alone
proud of empty cage behind breastbone,
solid in my belief, vacant heart tomb
stoking fires, tightening my flume
sealed tight behind brick and mortar,
content sideline supporter
with just enough room for a few
sitting alone, never expected anything new.
I never anticipated affection to happen
fine to keep vigil, in darkness dampen
no expectation of damage,
believing in my adage,
love is for fools
coupling for tools
unable to stand on their own.
Now my brain is dosed
my veins are exposed
raw and pulsing red
craving more, wishing I were dead
wanting to run, filled with lead
a blank slate with absent fate
alarmed it’s too late
to turn and back away
terrified to leave, petrified to stay.

Stardust Kisses with Vehement Kindness

The words bite down upon my tongue.
They hold me still to keep from pouring forth
upon my chin,
to find my sleeves
rolling across my hand to place upon your cheek,
visions which cannot be.
In another life with you,
I would run to any corner of sunlight
plant roots of freedom,
grow my soul full of nourishment
love, a bounty of joy.
Ten years ago, who would know
of a boy growing into a man
as I sat holding babe to breast
already my heart heavy in desperate protest,
pinned upon my skin.
A tag of remorse, found in lost discourse,
projected in shadows thrown
a universe never known
explode into my soul,
stardust kisses with vehement kindness.
Lay me down upon the ground
release from me the moan,
love like lava,
of a woman who has known
burns with gouged paths in her wake.
Consuming all, she takes.
Destroyed to the barest elements
kisses make land to harbor where once
there was only sea.